Whew, this writing thing is hard. For me to do this, I have to get up very early in the morning, before the sun rises on my day to day thoughts. I sit here in the dark waiting for the Lord to shine down on me with divine intervention. If I make the time to do this, nine times out of ten it comes and I end up getting something down on paper. If I don’t make the time to sit down with a clear head, then I’m guaranteed not to get to anything done.
Making the time has been the greatest challenge. As I’m trying to fit writing into my schedule, I’m also trying to fit training for a half marathon in. Add to that a relationship, friendships, work, and other commitments and by Friday morning my head is often spinning. Oh, and I have I mentioned the holidays?!?!? The assholes are surely trying to tell me I can’t keep all of this up and meet the additional demands of the holiday season (not to mention the ubiquitous holiday drama) as well!
I’ve certainly had moments over the last few weeks when I’ve felt snowed under with this new direction I find myself in. It’s kind of like adjusting to having a new baby in the house. Everything is different. This new thing requires time, focus and intention. My entire schedule has had to shift to accommodate the early mornings, which means early evenings . . . nothing is the same. Huge upside is that smelly diapers are not involved.
The bottom line though, is that everything that overwhelms me are ALL tremendous blessings from God! This new direction, my relationships with friends and family, my amazing job and my civic responsibilities all bring depth and purpose to my life. They are all tremendously beneficial facets to my existence and not one of them can afford to suffer from my being a little in over my head.
If that is the case, and I fully believe it is, then God will give me the time and energy, inspiration and motivation to do all I need to do. As I have said here before, He won’t take me where His grace won’t lead me. The same goes for you.
Another amazing post, Lindsey, and thank you for inspiring me to want to write on a more regular basis.
ReplyDeleteI love how you're celebrating the new direction in which God is leading you. One thing people often forget is that God does not work on the 'change things overnight' plan. His is a patience that is infinite, and He asks we work to do the same. Just like training for a half-marathon, you don't go from the decision to do something new and different to getting to that point of comfortable routine overnight. It takes time, effort, patience and prayer to accomplish all those things we set out to do.
Kudos to you and wishing you all the best.
...and keep proving those assholes wrong.
It really is true that you gain more from the journey than the destination, Gil! Thank you, as always for being such an encourager!
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